Decisions

Im currently enrolled in Ivy Tech and to be frank I hate it so much. The reason is that I am not getting the full "college experience" and I am not studying what I truly want to study. I want to study Zoology at Ball State University. That has been my dream for a little over a year now. But all the shit that happened my senior year held me back from achieving that goal.  I let all the crap get to me, so I took the easy way out. I avoided filling out scholarships and applications and now I am paying the price. I want to get away and experience life on my own. I need to grow up. I need to do something for me. I am going to start a fund for next year. I know its forever away but if I put away $20 a week I could save up and have some sort of money. I am also filling out as many scholarships as I can. I have to grow up and do this. I know its a scary thought, but its time. I am slowly beginning to realize that. I have beginning to think about a lot lately. I need to get a move on in my life. I am not going to be young forever. This is my time to live.